August 12th marked 6 months out from my laparoscopic surgery back in February. I cannot believe it’s already been half of a year since the endometriosis in my pelvis was removed along with the endometrioma on my left ovary. My surgeon also preformed a presacral neurectomy in which a nerve supplying my uterus was cut and I received an IUD. Overall, sitting here 6 months later, I feel great. I have yet to have a big pain flare since surgery and the IUD has also taken my periods away altogether. For me, this is a huge plus since I previously went through so many years of constant bleeding.
I have noticed that I do get this sensation on my lower left side every once in awhile. It’s hard to describe. It almost feels like pressure in that general area and sometimes it feels like a dull ache. There have been a couple of days throughout this past six months that it has felt a little worse. I try not to think much of it, but there is a small part of me that worries I have another cyst or that something is wrong with that ovary.
I definitely consider my surgery to be a success. However, after going through so much pain and bleeding for so long, I feel like I am just waiting for the next flare up and heavy period to hit me. I’m waiting for my lower abdomen to start cramping. I’m waiting for my lower back to start aching. I’m on edge waiting for another heavy cycle. It’s hard for me to imagine a pain free life without debilitating periods. For as long as I can remember, that was the reality of my life. It’s almost as if I have to remind myself that the next burst of pain is likely not coming anytime soon. The pain is greatly decreased and I am managing my endo – this is my new reality! Additionally, the IUD is the first form of birth control that I can honestly say has worked for me and has helped with my symptoms. I can have the Mirena IUD up to five years, and right now I plan on keeping it up until it has to be removed.
Of course, I realize there is a high risk of recurrence in endometriosis patients since there is no cure. I do worry that the endometriosis is growing back. I do worry that I will have another chocolate cyst and will need a second surgery. I am scared that the daily pain will come back. However, right now that is not the case, so I am trying to remind myself to enjoy these pain free days, live life, and let go of the worries and what-ifs.
These past six months have flown by and I cannot wait to see where I will be and how I will feel another six months from now.